I am going through one of my 'spiritually disconnected' phases. It is one of those phases in which you might do acts of worship but you're not spiritually there and you know the difference because you've felt the spiritual 'connectedness' before.
Actually, I'm not sure if this is a phase but it is a constant inner struggle. There are some months in which you feel so connected, so spiritual - and some months you lie in bed thinking at night before falling asleep why you feel so disconnected.
I'm not sure sure why I'm even blogging about this considering I know the problem and I know the solution. To be spiritually connected you need to work towards it. You need to stay away from the things you're supposed to stay away from and do the things you're supposed to be doing.
If you get distracted, or your heart gets caught up in some other small thing and you're not careful to keep a bit of a mental barrier between you and that book that you get so engrossed in that you rush through your prayers because it is foremost in your mind, or the TV serial that you've been following and wondering what will happen next to your favourite characters...
So when my heart gets caught up with something else I notice the change. My heart isn't in my prayers, or I don't have time to do my voluntary prayers or the adhkaar I used to read before going to bed are simply delayed or forgotten. I know doing the 'required' acts these days is also a burden for a lot of people but that spiritual connectedness is worth working for. I've felt it. It's worth all the effort you make to feel that peace and serenity. That connectedness you feel when you talk to God in your prayers. When reading his book isn't a rush or a fast completion but you actually feel.
It's a struggle though. A constant struggle to not get caught up in things which are most probably meaningless at the end of the day. However, the hearts, they're always turning. Getting caught up in this and that. It's so easy to be distracted by small things.
So I'm hoping this 'so-called' phase passes. But I guess I know it's down to me to make the effort to make it pass...
Actually, I'm not sure if this is a phase but it is a constant inner struggle. There are some months in which you feel so connected, so spiritual - and some months you lie in bed thinking at night before falling asleep why you feel so disconnected.
I'm not sure sure why I'm even blogging about this considering I know the problem and I know the solution. To be spiritually connected you need to work towards it. You need to stay away from the things you're supposed to stay away from and do the things you're supposed to be doing.
If you get distracted, or your heart gets caught up in some other small thing and you're not careful to keep a bit of a mental barrier between you and that book that you get so engrossed in that you rush through your prayers because it is foremost in your mind, or the TV serial that you've been following and wondering what will happen next to your favourite characters...
So when my heart gets caught up with something else I notice the change. My heart isn't in my prayers, or I don't have time to do my voluntary prayers or the adhkaar I used to read before going to bed are simply delayed or forgotten. I know doing the 'required' acts these days is also a burden for a lot of people but that spiritual connectedness is worth working for. I've felt it. It's worth all the effort you make to feel that peace and serenity. That connectedness you feel when you talk to God in your prayers. When reading his book isn't a rush or a fast completion but you actually feel.
It's a struggle though. A constant struggle to not get caught up in things which are most probably meaningless at the end of the day. However, the hearts, they're always turning. Getting caught up in this and that. It's so easy to be distracted by small things.
So I'm hoping this 'so-called' phase passes. But I guess I know it's down to me to make the effort to make it pass...
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